Aunt Diane

Kevin's aunt Diane passed away last week and this Tuesday was her viewing in Layton. Kev had to work so I took the kids by myself! I think it was the first time I got them ready, (all cute) by myself, went and drove like 50 minutes there, and then came home by myself. It was exhausting! I did however remember to take pics of the kids and those that were there.

Now I usually hate, absolutely hate to dwell on my little issues, but I think it is wearing on me. While I was at the viewing the pain was immense! I am so tired of being tired. I am so upset that pain has begun to dictate my life. I know it will pass, I know it will get better and if it does not than I will manage. However, today and this week life is hard. I do not have it THAT hard. I actually am so very blessed. I know it, I even believe it, but I have shed way to many tears this week to not vent about it and find some inner peace with my situation. I want to be normal, I want to wake up and not feel like I am 80 years old (sorry to you 80 year olds). Oh, how I miss the days I sprung out of bed, stretched, and smiled. These days the only one who does that is the kids. Kevin even is old! He is worn, tired, and somewhat broken. I hope that spring is the answer, the weather and sun shining may bring a new beginning. I hope that as my favorite saying of all time goes, "This too shall pass!" Well hurry up already! Guillain Barre stops you in your tracks and then as you start to move forward, it is like a brick wall reminding you and your body that you are no longer in control, the disease is! So I say to it I am not going to stop trying, I am not going to give up, I may complain every now and then, but I will prevail, however that may be!

Let me say yet again, I know my life is not that bad and I know my trials are minimal compared to others, so here I go once again truckin' along and moving forward however slow that may be! I love you all and thank you for your love and support. I am done and the complaining is over!

Ka'Lya, she now has a sympathy smile. It is not her real smile it is more like an I do not know you but I will be polite!

Casey, Kee, Colton, and Keo.

Grandpa and Keo

Grandma and Grandpa. They are serving a mission here in Salt Lake in the senior mission office.

Kev's sister Audrey and his brother Tyler. Kya loves Tyler. I hate when he wears this hat because it always reflects off my flash, but he told me it is because he is an angel, lol.

This is Victoria. She is Kevin's nephew Stetson's daughter.

This is Casey Kevin's younger brother. He is so cute with Ka'Lya, really who cannot help but love her.

Kee'Onu was happy to see everyone.

Ka'Lya again.

Ki'Aja was so happy and had so much fun playing with Victoria. It was sad that his aunt is gone, but yet she was very ill before she passed and she is no longer in pain. She was always so sweet. She sent us a Christmas card every year. I remember when I was dating Kevin and we went to her house for Thanksgiving, and she was giving and loving and fun. I am so glad to know her and happy that she is now reunited with her love.